Have you ever wondered who you really were? I don't know, in my mind somehow things seem to contradict. At one point, so many people seem to run together in my head I'm not sure who I am and what I like and what I should do. At other times, I feel like I'm the only person who realizes I'm there.

Being alone, to me, is somehow more terrifying than anything I can imagine. Man is a gregarious animal, but woman is even worse. I don't know. Just the other day, I fell down crying on the floor, and no one knew, and no one cared but my dogs, and I think they thought I had some food.

Are you afraid of being alone? It can't be only me--then I'll be REALLY alone. Something's are so uncertain in this world.

It's so easy to feel alone. Even when you know there are people around you that care. Sometimes they don't show it, and sometimes they can't or aren't available, and sometimes it's easy to believe they don't care.

Sometimes it shakes me so much that I cry inside and out, and I wonder how God wished this upon us all, and if there really is a God, or if people out there worship some other demon, and it is truly that demon that cuts me off at the knees.

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